Such a long time since I've updated. I seldom have internet access to xanga any more, so there's little time to update. The days are filled - sometimes, with joy, sometimes with sorry.

We are making it, slowly. There are issues across the spectrum of my life that I have in my face constantly. I wish I were better at dealing.

http://web.me.com/laurel.f.lautensack/www.laurelfernphotography.com/Blog/Entries/2009/11/5_Sacred_Spaces.html is a blog entry that, if you have time, I'd love for you to enjoy.

The blog is written by a new friend of my youngest son. He is a senior this year, and we hope that he will be able to pursue his calling at my alma mater next year. Please pray for God to open the doors so he can prepare for God's plans in a way that doesn't leave him (or us) financially devastated.

I miss writing here. Maybe some day...

without full internet access regularly available, I only get a chance to blog occasionally. I'm hoping that eventually full internet will eventually be available.

I'm doing okay, in general. I'm counting down the days until I see another of my kids. Of course, I see Jawn every day - well, every day that the two of us are in the same place. But it's been 2 months since I last saw Ben, 4 months since I last saw Daniel, and about 6 months since I last saw Laura.

We're planning for everyone to be together at the end of the month, at Laura's wedding. That will be so much fun.

Weather is improving, which is nice. I'm feeling okay - good days and bad days of course. Rest of the family are doing okay as far as I know - Daniel's studying like crazy to finish up the semester, Jawn is working towards the end of his high school jr. year. Both are looking for summer jobs.

We surely do appreciate the prayers being offered up for us and our loved ones.

It is very frustrating having my blog sites, etc. all blocked by my isp. However, just can't financially handle changing to someone else right now. Too many stressors pulling at me every which way.

I'm still cold, but the weather supposedly warmed up a bit today - into the 50s they promised. I was at work, then got chores done, and now am checking my email before the library closes.

Hope everyone is doing fine.

I'm supposed to run the sound board this weekend for a friend's wedding rehersal and wedding. Whee!

so, while I have a bit of access at home, it is minimal, and lately has been reduced significantly. So my updates here, which already were minimal, now have to wait until I get to the library. And my normal schedule is to get up around 5am, get ready, head for work around 6am, work until 3:30pm, head home, run errands, pick people up, fix meals, head for church, etc. until 6-9pm, then watch a little tv or read and head for bed. Not much time available to get to the library. I got here today for the first time in a couple weeks, I think.

My knee still aches - it's been about 3 weeks so far. I'm still relatively cold even though the outside temperature has risen to 50 degrees F. But, I just keep trying to do what I can when I can and keep moving forward.

Have a great week!